The BODY hair syndrom

Body hair made me sick. The thought of small black hair lingering around everywhere in my body cringe the fuck out of me. Why god? why? Why me? This is the thought of 24 years old me, was the thought of 14 years me as well.

Why do we, me, and me in the past hated it so much? let's dig deeper

Class 5

This day I came across my father's razor, (accidentally). I had seen him shaved often but never understood how it worked, why he shaved. Just an inquisitive mind of me finding a razor took it directly to my legs. one stroke at a time. just once, let's see how it works. hmmm smooth, oh look no hair, oh look how clean, oh look how beautiful my leg looks (comparing it to the next one), let's make the next leg equally beautiful too. shave! shave! shave! wallah !! never seen my leg so smooth, so clean, so white. Yes for the next two days. No for the rest of life. Removing the baby hair brought the daddy hair, stronger, darker, and brutal. Regret! regret! regret!

Class 7

It's hard being a teenager. everything is growing and everything is itchy. and I don't even need to point out what, everyone knows, no one talks. Worst of all, your favorite sleeveless clothes are no more your favorite, BECAUSE YOU CANNOT WEAR IT WITHOUT SHOWING YOUR LATEST POSSESSIONS. I envied girls who were late in their puberty: no growing up means no boobs, no hairs, no itching, no embarrassment. Then came periods, oh lord!!! Periods accelerated the hair growing tendency and the more hair you have more insecure you get. Hence, long shocks, long skirts, and long sleeves.

Class 10

With the increasing knowledge on the number of hair removing products through a hell lot of advertisements, increased my experimentation and obsession to get rid of hair. Hence, came stolen and old razor of father, then came the inexpensive hair removal cream that I could afford without telling my mother, then entered the king of hair removal 'WAXING'. Waxing was a month-long boon. I remember trying wax the first time: never, knew you had to heat the hot wax and warm the cold one. The hard sugary stuff in your body was not something you expected. The idea of waxing got quite popular in our class. And I remember before going to the 'EPIC CLASS 10 TOUR' all of us (girls) tried it. Yes! it was not uniform and smooth but it was something.

High School

The teenage in you just want to hide all the insecurities and put you in the best form. I hated high school because I did not know how to do it. A little grown mustachio in upper lips, bushy eyebrows, and pretty girls who knew how to dress were all screaming my insecurities. OUT LOUD. With a hostel full of 30-40 girls body hair gets a little normalized and a lot more traumatizing. You get to learn what and "WHERE" needs trimming, removal, cleaning, etc. And you enter into further dilemma either to try it or not. NO NO ITS A TRAP. NOPE DO NOT TRY IT

Bachelors

Despite allllllllll these warnings you do it and do it again and again and again and again repeating the endless cycle. Well till this time, my eyebrows and my upper lips were safe, until a guy called me "JUNGEE" (girl with mustache) in front of the entire canteen. Well, here it goes! the embarrassment broke the one cycle that I did not start to date (I am JONAS in my version of DARK). And believe me, waxing does not hurt at all when you have to try threading. 

Now, after all these years, my obsession to remove body hair has not changed but an outlook regarding it definitely has. With a little more advertisements, a lot more products and in hand money to spend on it, I still practice hair removal. Will I be able to break the cycle, I don't know. But, am I insecure about what will people say? NO. Am I observant of whether people are looking at my hairy hands, NO! Am I comfortable with body hair having its existence, YES!  

Now, I do it whenever I feel like it or when I just want to, not because I have to. I have seen people embracing body hair, I have seen people least worried about it, I have come to the understanding that it is part of my body and it is not gross. With all these experience I will just like to suggest you one thing, DO IT If you want to and DON'T DO IT if you don't feel like it. It's your body, your hair and literally NOONE, I repeat NOONE actually CARES. 

BE COMFORTABLE, BE CONFIDENT.